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13 August 2014 @ 09:27 pm

Last night we had rice for dinner. (With other stuff but rice is what's important.)
Tonight the kids had some leftover rice. On Des's plate, I see two cooked worm-like bugs on his plate. Ugh....They look very similar to rice, except they have tiny legs.

Des is done eating by this point so I don't bring it up. The rice is chucked into the compost. The chickens will love our rice 'n' bugs!

I look it up online because I'm grossed out. Apparantly, it's normal and all grains have eggs and will hatch when conditions are right. ugh ugh ugh.

I don't get grossed out often but this is fucking gross. Only other thing that grosses me out is the fact that there are some people that make, eat, and serve cheese with maggots in it. holy fuck, that is fucking gross.
03 May 2014 @ 09:18 pm
So Buster seems to be okay for now.

He has a nasal tumor. We are treating it with a steroid. Not doing chemo or radiation. Life expectancy is usually 2-7 months without treatment, and a year or so with radiation. Chemo is a little bit less. I'm not sure what the life expectancy is for treating with steroids. Buster started having the nasal discharge last August, so it has been 9 months!

He has a terrible nasal discharge. I clean his nose many times a day. He eats but he was losing weight last month. I do need to weigh him again.

So things were already not looking for Buster.....

Back in February, he blocked. He couldn't pee. When cats cannot pee, it means that something has obstructed his urethra. In young cats, this is usually stones or crystals, and you can put the cat on a wet food only or prescription food diet. Buster is 13 years old. It's very weird that he would suddenly develop a problem with stones or crystals. No stones or crystals were seen in the x-rays, urine samples, etc.

We got him through being blocked and it was hard. It took 5 days before Buster could pee on his own and it was really stressful for him. I questioned his quality of life, but he did get better. I cut out all dry food. He seemed okay, except for that nasal tumor.

Last week he blocked again. I had to take him to the emergency vet. This vet plus my regular vet thought it was strange that he blocked for the first time at 13, plus doubly weird that he blocked on his wet food only diet.

We got him an ultrasound, which showed something in the urethra. They flushed it back into his bladder (no way to get it out of his body). It could be a blot clot, a mucus plug or a something that I can't remember the name of but its kind of life blood becoming hard and forming a blood stone.

The only way to get this out is surgery. I decided not to do the surgery. It seems like too much to put him in. If he did not have the nasal tumor and this thing in his bladder was his only problem, then yes I wouldn't hesitate.

For now, this thing is in his bladder but if it does block him again, then I will put him to sleep. It could happen tonight, it could happen months from now. The nasal tumor may kill him first.

I'm keeping an eye on his quality of life. He seems happy now, eating, cuddling and what not.
27 April 2014 @ 10:35 pm
I always had this idea in my head that all of my cats would live to 20 years old. I don't know where it came from, maybe I thought we were exceptional care takers, whatever.

It's a stupid thing to think.

We lost Nirvana at age 10, she was about to turn 11. Granted, my parents were the actual care takers of her, but still. That should have put me in some perspective.

Sometimes shit happens. Shit we cannot control. Shit we try desperately to control but it just gets thrown back in our faces. You can't control this.
31 May 2013 @ 12:39 am
Sawyer episode.

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09 May 2013 @ 11:07 pm
The only thing that could make this night better is some wine. Tomorrow I'm going to Trader Joe's to stock on cheap wine. I'm not drinking it now but I will be. I will be. You watch out there wine. I've got you in my umm...anyway

I told Matt for Mother's Day I want to dye my hair. Since I only have the one job where they don't care what color your hair is, I'm doing two colors at once. Pink and blue. I'm not entirely sure how I want to do this yet, or what the best way is to dye two colors at once.

We have bleach already. I have the amazon page for manic panic open. I had $10 in amazon gift cards from swagbucks and I just got an e-mail that I got another $5! AWESOME! I only need to spend $5 or $6 extra to get hair dye!!!

I'm excited. Also, not to promote swagbucks more but for every dollar I spend in the beauty section on amazon, I get 3 swagbucks! Sweet. gift cards turning into gift cards.

Tomorrow I'm also going to JCPenny because I have a gift card from christmas that I never used.


I can't wait for all this stuff. Clothes, wine, hair.
01 May 2013 @ 09:08 am
I've been working more and able to do more, so I've been busy cleaning and taking the kids places when I'm not working. It's hard to watch LOST. I will try to do it once a week or so. I do want to rewatch it.
18 April 2013 @ 11:43 pm
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11 April 2013 @ 08:36 pm
I volunteered at Tabby's Place today for 2 hours to get myself in the game a bit before working a longer shift on Monday. It was awesome. I didn't have a problem doing anything and I still feel awesome.

I've been doing a lot and feeling great! I've been doing laundry, cleaning, doing more with the kids.

I feel like a productive member of society!
03 April 2013 @ 11:31 pm
Life is good.

On Monday I was all pumped to be allowed to drive, and do things.

Tuesday I tried to do too much and got bummed out with how tired I got.

Today I feel much more positive.

I know I will do more things everyday. Everyday will be a bit better. I still need to take it easy. I can do more, but a little bit more everyday.

Matt's been awesome, getting the farm started. I'm really proud of him. He's been posting his progress everyday on facebook if anyone is interested in following him: http://www.facebook.com/HandPickedFarm

I've been rewatching LOST but I do have Battlestar Galactica pangs. I've also been watching Rocko's Mordern Life, Game of Thrones and Portlandia.

I had an interview today that went really well. Life could get very busy in the next month!
03 April 2013 @ 10:55 pm
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02 April 2013 @ 05:19 pm
I had a check up at the hospital today. Got a chest X-ray. Sternum looks awesome! It is not fully healed but healing really well. I am now allowed to drive, and can return to work in two weeks. I can lift up to 20 pounds. I asked what restrictions I have, and my doctor said to go slow with things and if it hurts to stop. So I can do things! Tonight I will start clipping cat nails. Those fuckers are long.

Today I took the kids to the park by myself! Woo!

I had big plans to put away all the clothes in the bedroom, clean up legos, and then have Matt move some stuff. I got 1/2 of it done and I am wiped.....

I guess I felt so awesome that I was told I healed enough to do things, that I thought I would automatically be a power house. I will get my strength back but it will be slower than I thought. I really want to organize the shit out of this place.
30 March 2013 @ 10:36 pm
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